To think rationally and realistic, or to think in more idealistic terms: this seems to be the question people struggle with. Do I pursue my idealistic dreams, or do I settle down, and become more stable and secure? 
~scared to be boring

here is to what could be,
what you decided you didn't want,
what you never got the chance to know,
here is to the wasted time.

I could have been the light to your darkness,
your healing to the brokenness,
the love you long for,
the peace your mind seeks.

here is to your next, 
hope they care at least half as much as I did,
you pushed me away
here is to my new life. 

Late nights and drunk conversations
Hot Cheetos, Blue Powerades, & empty cigarette packs
Shoes off at the door
Apache 207.

Apartment after parties, waking my roommate.
Jumping into the fountain.
6 am alarms.
"Schlampe"

Darties and Wine Wednesdays.
Meeting my friends.
Quick Grill and Chuck's Fish.
Your Kia Door.

Waking in the middle of the night to you snoring, yet
falling asleep holding your hand.
Your Mercedes shirts, black gucci cologne.
YG Pablo.

Knowing who the best designated driver is (neither).
Looking at the stars.
Sex on the beach.
Pizza nights.

Missing you from 4, 700 miles away
Never saw this coming
Me falling so hard
Late night poems.

Reminiscing on memories to feel close to you
We aren't the same, Something changed
Missing the old you
Wulfgang.

Back again. 
I should have known better by now.
Dealt a new hand of cards.
Caught up in the high.
Dopamine. 

Addicted to you.
Your shirt smells good.
Playing risky games.
I laid my cards on the table.
Adrenaline.

Lost it all for a chance at love.
What's a poker face?
Said I love you too soon.
No regrets, but regrets
Depression.

-a night at the casinos

Hey you, how are you? We haven't talked in a while. You ghosted me when you got a new lover. You kind of just ditched me to the curb and stopped putting in effort, stopped caring about me. I got tired of waiting and hoping you'd be there for me so I left. You lost me, and I'm reaching out because deep down I still care and am there for you. I hope your life is better and going well though.
Love,
Yourself

flights. fears. dreams. 
you. us. me.
bills. tuition. scholarships.
travel blogs. newfound trips.
life. death. illness.
joy. family. sadness.
depression. anxiety. time
all these things on my mind. 

I'd rather live a risky life, full of both adventures and mistakes, instead of living in fear of the unknown. -me

Why is it that one can be a heart breaker and heart broken at the same time? 

Feminists. The F word society throws around as a stereotype versus a word illustrating equality. Society has given the notion feminists are all radical, pro-abortion, liberal, alternative, non-conformists, LBGTQ, females, or other non-traditional "stigmas." I am here to say that is a lie. A feminist is someone who fights and continues to advocate for equal rights among the sexes, particularly for females. The goal is for equality, not for benefits. Being equal involves equal pay, fair treatment, and a multitude of things regarding respect. I believe there are those individuals who seek benefits because they have a confused  idea of equality. While there is still unfair treatment in the US and other countries for females, I am advocating for a better understanding of what it means to be feminist. I am female, but I do not fall into any of the categories listed above for what society sees feminists to be. Most people, all genders, are actually indeed feminists, as the majority can agree that equal rights for all genders, races, and ethnicities are good things. While society either choses to shy away from using the F word (feminist), or over uses it in contexts that are more controversial, society has given feminists all around a bad name. I believe the nature of the word 'feminist' and who a feminist is is actually a matter of justice versus belief. Females have sought and are seeking justice for equal rights.  Equal rights are not just a belief. Equal rights will provide justice. Equal rights are justice. Because of these statements, I am unquestionably a feminist, and while I do not support various claims made by feministic organizations, I attest I am an advocate for equal rights and justice, as all men are created equal; therefore, yes, I do use the F word. I use it because I am the third-wave of feminism, I am the voice for 21st century equality and feminism, just like each of you. We can all reshape the negative connotations or confused stigmas on what it means to be a feminist. So don't be afraid to use the F word. 

W. why do I give more of myself to those who don't appreciate me
T. too many times I've been hurt, yet I keep letting my guard down
F. for all the times I've heard fake "i love you"s